I can't recall exactly when in the pandemic I stumbled across Tea With Druids (originally Tea With A Druid) from OBOD. The livestreams had been a regular weekly thing for 2 or 3 years by the time I started joining.
For a while there, though, I was 'tuning in' weekly. Although latterly I'd fallen out of that habit. (Partly that was due to the November-December period being a particularly busy one, offline. I feel sure I'd have gotten back into the habit come January, if they hadn't 'aired' the final episode this week.)
Often I'd be either cooking or eating dinner which meant that even when I did listen, I couldn't fully participate in the meditation portion. But I nevertheless got a lot out of the weekly livestreams, regardless.
I didn't catch this week's one when it went live. (It being the day after Boxing Day, it was the first day in a while that I was trying to re-establish my normal regular routine. So I think I'd overlooked that it was a Monday. And in any case I believe I was watching something else with my spouse at 8 o'clock when it went live.)
Instead, I watched it Wednesday. And I noted the subtitle: The Final Episode. So I obviously had a hint of what was to come. Then Phillip Carr-Gomm confirmed that it was to be the last Tea With Druids (though it may return sometime in another format).
I felt a shock run through me. I don't do well with endings.
This ending is fairly minor in the scheme of things, so the shock mercifully didn't last too long. And I feel I'm already coming to a state of acceptance, just a few hours later.
It illustrates something about me, though. Another good example would be Avengers: Infinity Wars. If you haven't seen that film, this could well amount to spoilers. So maybe stop reading here if you plan to see it. If you have seen it you'll hopefully know what I'm referring to.
I genuinely felt bereft after that film, for a full 3 days. Over fictional characters. I felt as though I'd lost a whole handful of friends. People in my social circle sort of laughed at me over that.
So I have an abnormal attachment to the past. So sue me.
I guess, in a way, these small endings are ultimately helpful for learning how better to process the bigger ones? At least, I'm going to tell myself that this is a helpful way of looking at (and accepting, rather than fighting) my neurotic tendencies.
Thank you Phillip Carr-Gomm (and OBOD, and all the other past guest Druids) for all the Tea With Druids episodes. They've been helpful to me, this past year or so, on my 'Druid-ish' journey.
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| Inspired by original art from Albert Uderzo |
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