Kemeticism - why aren't I Kemetic?

When I was little, maybe around age 8 or so, I had a fascination for ancient Egypt.  I took it upon myself to put together a 'school-style' research project on the subject.  (This was despite not having been given any such instructions by the school, so this was very unusual for me.)

    The project mainly concerned the gods and goddesses of ancient Egypt, and the myths surrounding them.  I recall I felt a particular affinity for the goddesses Hathor and Iset*.
    (*I'm using the spelling of her name from the Book of Coming Forth by Day, better known as the Book of the Dead.)

    Everything I researched felt so far removed from the daily life I was living as a British schoolchild.  So magically exotic.

    Later on, one of the first pieces of jewellery I purchased for myself as a young adult was an ankh pendant.  It was a symbol which held great meaning for me at that time.  I had it for years & years, until very recently when it finally went missing, sadly.

    So, it may seem odd that when I began exploring paganism I didn't even consider Kemeticism.  Partly, it's that I'd no idea modern peoples actually still worshipped the Kemetic -or Hellenic, or Roman, or Norse- pantheon(s).  It was fairly recently that I learned this is a thing.

    The other thing is that, despite my early fascination with ancient Egypt, it wasn't Kemeticism I felt calling to me.

    I'm still figuring out precisely what it was calling to me, although I keep coming back to Druidry.  And I've taken to referring to myself as Druidish.

    So why not syncretise Kemeticism with Druidry, you may ask?  Well, here's the other wrinkle: I feel like I'm non-theistic.  Not atheistic you understand -- I guess you could say I ought to use the word agnostic (and for a long time I did).
    [Ahh this is the point in my blog where I realise it's going to be really hard to articulate what I mean.  Because I can barely get my own thoughts around it.  Nevermind putting sensible language around it for a blog post...]

    There's something out there in my outlook.  Something I can't quantify.  It's not a pantheon of gods and goddesses, so far as I know.  Not in my path.  There's a universal life-force energy (referred to in my post #19 about Reincarnation, if you read that).

    This life-force energy is worthy of reverence, since it's where we all are created from.  But its not an entity you could pray to or petition, necessarily.  Well, you could if you wanted, but it might not be a productive use of time.  And it likely wouldn't produce the results you're seeking in and of itself.  You could -similarly- worship it.  But I don't believe it expects it, or even notices if you do it.

    I can only explain this as the semantic difference between the words 'cosmos' and 'universe'.

    The word cosmos carries with it the notion of order, of organisation.  The universe, on the other hand; well it's just everything, as is.  Just stuff that happened at the big bang, and here it is.

    There's not an organising force out there, or even immanent within everything (well, there might be but I've yet to encounter it).  There's just an energy source which underlies every living thing.  We come from it when we're born, we return to it when we die.

    Perhaps it's like the difference between a fire god/dess and a huge, inescapable lava flow.  Or between a god/dess of the ocean and just the vast, unfathomable ocean itself.  The former: they have consciousness and can choose to spare you and even help you if they so desire.  The latter: well if you're in their way then your time is very likely up and prayer on its own isn't going to change that.  That's just a notion that's come to me now, as I write this.

    One final point I want to make, which is related to this topic but probably requires its own post, is this:  Because this life-force energy is, well, energy, as is everything else -including our thoughts- it means we can potentially tap into and even manipulate it in our own ways (up to a point).  This is where it becomes possible to perform spells and magic.  I'm not an expert; I'm barely even starting out.  So I won't speak more about that here or now.  Maybe never.

    I probably should do more research into Kemeticism.  But I've very much got my hands full with my Druidry research and studies (when I actually get around to it, even!).  Perhaps it'll be a goal for when I retire. (Or, if I get that elusory lotto win between now and then!)

    In the meantime, being a cat-lover, I would dearly love to have some interactions with Bast.  That would obviously be enough to convince me the above hypothesis is off the mark!

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